Malcolm James Furst

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Archive for December, 2008

The truth or a lie

My deepest memory,
my mother said to me,
life’s a fairy tale
with happy endings.

Life
is either
the truth
or a lie.

Could
be neither
or both,
tell me why

I never got my happy ending
I did my time and walked the line and
I’m losing all my faith
in human kind.

My mom and sister died
and left me all alone
With no one by my side
Nowhere to call my home

Pain
is either
the truth
or a lie.

Could
be neither
or both
tell me why

The world is full of death and anger
racing madly ever after
I can’t catch my breath.
I”ll lose my mind.

You walked into my life,
an unexpected joy you said,
welcome to my world
and happy endings.

Love
is either
the truth
or a lie.

Could
be neither
or both,
tell me why

I feel like I can’t love without you
Knowing all I do about you?
I need a piece of you
and peace of mind.

I Will Love Her Like No Other

I
am so confused
about her world
and my position in it.

Will
she come around
and sit with me
and laugh and smile a while and

love
me like I want
to love her with
a heart that’s big enough for

her
to open wide
and swim inside
then rest a while while living

like
a man and wife
who mate for life,
or will she fade away. Oh,

no.
I guarantee
our love will last
a longer time than any

other.

A moment of Peace

Sitting here, no longer waiting for the holiday parties, no longer watching the door for friends and strangers with whom to share food, drink, and fire, no longer worrying about what to do and when, I am filled with a sense of well being and connectedness that seems heavy and light at the same time, rather, I am slowed by the moment of peace and rest (which feels like heavy in my bones) and light-headed for lack of thought.

A Tuskegee Airman

I met one of the Tuskegee airmen at my great aunt’s funeral, and I wanted to ask him so much, but he didn’t want that kind of attention. Despite his humble nature, his carried himself with a certain bearing that drew my attention to him. He’ll be in Washington come January at the invitation of a committee full of people whose names and faces change like the seasons, at least in his eyes, while he remains a fixture, albeit humble, of our proud history made even more great by the shameful acts he endured for us, for freedom.

She’s seen me

SHE saw me today,
and she wants to find out, too,
if WE could be fun.

I’ve Seen Her

I’ve seen a woman beautiful
in all the ways that I love,
beautiful with no make-up on,
or so little make-up
that a man like me can’t tell.
She is beautiful in a t-shirt.
She is a strong woman,
not some wiry waif
who can carry her own lunch box
only because it’s empty.

I’ve seen a woman whose work is play
and who plays like she means it, too.
I’ve seen a woman so full of life
that surely she has something
to share with me.

I hope that she sees a man handsome
in the ways that she loves,
handsome without hair gel and manicures.
Handsome in denim or a tuxedo shirt,
but not some clothes horse
who worries more
about how he looks
than who he is.
I am a strong man,
the kind who pushes cars out of snowbanks.

I hope she sees a man who is passionate
about his work and his life.
I hope she sees a man so full of fire
that she wants to warm her hands
and her heart by me.

And now the ball is in her court, so to speak.
I’ve seen her,
and I can only hope
that she
sees
me.

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